It been awhile since March, but feeling of emptiness in the night continue occupying my soul. I guess all these while, I'm just putting up a cheerful mask. Since the death of my grandma n Jie I never likes being alone, and had eagerly finding ways to keep myself occupied - going out with friends, staying out late, doing a lot of stuff or to the extend running over to friend's place.
The death of my Jie has shaken me, I couldn't find way to accept the fact. How could this happened? I never want to lose her.
Year 2004, I celebrated my 21st Birthday. For all reason, I ought to be happy. Happy tt it was my 21st and there many ppl who came to celebrate my birthday with me. However, human being is a greedy creature on earth, I wanted more. I felt a sense of emptiness in my deepest soul. Something missing... my soul searching for it, moment of saddness overwhelmed the day of happiness. Unknowingly tear flows, during mid of the show "super cop4", I tried to control, but failed. Tt nite only my saddness and memories accompanied me.
Memories of mine birthday during my young age, my first school bag and alot. Since young my Jie would always celebrate my birthday without miss. Buying cake, organising it and present would turn out a routine. And in day when finicial allows her, she would buy me toys, she too would always bring me out whenever she could. My first school bag I had was a gift from her, a blue smurf bag, the picture is fresh.
Once i was hospitalised.. She visited me in the late night and the surrounding was quiet.. very quiet. I was really touch by her as she visited me after her long working hours. Dunnoe how long had she been sitting there before I woke up and notice her, she must have waited patiently and do not wish to awake me fm my sleep. She sat there, so to fulfill her promise to me and before she left, she kissed me on my forehead and handing a comic to my hand.
She such a great Jie to me and always the greatest.
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