It been awhile since March, but feeling of emptiness in the night continue occupying my soul. I guess all these while, I'm just putting up a cheerful mask. Since the death of my grandma n Jie I never likes being alone, and had eagerly finding ways to keep myself occupied - going out with friends, staying out late, doing a lot of stuff or to the extend running over to friend's place.
The death of my Jie has shaken me, I couldn't find way to accept the fact. How could this happened? I never want to lose her.
Year 2004, I celebrated my 21st Birthday. For all reason, I ought to be happy. Happy tt it was my 21st and there many ppl who came to celebrate my birthday with me. However, human being is a greedy creature on earth, I wanted more. I felt a sense of emptiness in my deepest soul. Something missing... my soul searching for it, moment of saddness overwhelmed the day of happiness. Unknowingly tear flows, during mid of the show "super cop4", I tried to control, but failed. Tt nite only my saddness and memories accompanied me.
Memories of mine birthday during my young age, my first school bag and alot. Since young my Jie would always celebrate my birthday without miss. Buying cake, organising it and present would turn out a routine. And in day when finicial allows her, she would buy me toys, she too would always bring me out whenever she could. My first school bag I had was a gift from her, a blue smurf bag, the picture is fresh.
Once i was hospitalised.. She visited me in the late night and the surrounding was quiet.. very quiet. I was really touch by her as she visited me after her long working hours. Dunnoe how long had she been sitting there before I woke up and notice her, she must have waited patiently and do not wish to awake me fm my sleep. She sat there, so to fulfill her promise to me and before she left, she kissed me on my forehead and handing a comic to my hand.
She such a great Jie to me and always the greatest.
Thursday, December 30, 2004
Friday, December 24, 2004
Merry X'mas
HOHOHO.. Merry Christmas.. Today I'm not going to blog much.. But just a simply wish to all my friend, Merry Christma and a wonderful nite.
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
Got Freedom, but Bored!
Woohoo.. This week mark the end of the my Basic Military Training in Tekong. Pretty glad that it end, which mean I do not have climbed tt stupid stair anymore and hurt my leg further. My graditute to all ppl who been constantly helping me during the days I was on clutches. Special thank to my section mates and Sergeant.
While I been idling these days, nothing much to do and no one wanna go out too.. Went to catch Incredible with Shanlin, then do some catch up in Mr Bean.
Today went out for buffet in suntec, the food serve was so-so. And bought a shirt from top-man @ Bugis Junction, I like the design therefore did not actually consider much. Later in the night, met up Darrell had some chat over the BMT topic, notice how lucky i was compared to him without all the takan n chiong shan training...
After all the troubles last night, finally I see my mum's flight arrived in Singapore. Well abit of the troubles illustration.. This person 'A' always never manage to get message correctly, even when it was written black n white. So 'A' said my mum would be back on Monday nite 11.30pm flight, therefore he was there waiting whole night. Hahaa.. N i was kind of worried as it happened that for e 2 days there this same flight no. arriving in SG, I called Changi Airport to check up, and was diverted to e flight company adminstration counter. I asked:" Erm, I need to check with you if this passenger was on the plane?" CSO replied:" I'm apologised, we are unable to reveal any information regard to safety precaution. Why not you can ask the pessenger to call in person." Wasn't tt freak or wat.. I dun even noe where my mum was, asking me to ask her to call???? Crazy rite.
Conclusion, sometime in order to get things done you would need to raise ur voice and do some screaming. In the end, after some scolding and screamming the CSO finally told me the answer.
Hahaa.. anywhere got present from my mum.. Again she got freak up coz of my injuries. Dunnoe wat she gonna up with this time.
While I been idling these days, nothing much to do and no one wanna go out too.. Went to catch Incredible with Shanlin, then do some catch up in Mr Bean.
Today went out for buffet in suntec, the food serve was so-so. And bought a shirt from top-man @ Bugis Junction, I like the design therefore did not actually consider much. Later in the night, met up Darrell had some chat over the BMT topic, notice how lucky i was compared to him without all the takan n chiong shan training...
After all the troubles last night, finally I see my mum's flight arrived in Singapore. Well abit of the troubles illustration.. This person 'A' always never manage to get message correctly, even when it was written black n white. So 'A' said my mum would be back on Monday nite 11.30pm flight, therefore he was there waiting whole night. Hahaa.. N i was kind of worried as it happened that for e 2 days there this same flight no. arriving in SG, I called Changi Airport to check up, and was diverted to e flight company adminstration counter. I asked:" Erm, I need to check with you if this passenger was on the plane?" CSO replied:" I'm apologised, we are unable to reveal any information regard to safety precaution. Why not you can ask the pessenger to call in person." Wasn't tt freak or wat.. I dun even noe where my mum was, asking me to ask her to call???? Crazy rite.
Conclusion, sometime in order to get things done you would need to raise ur voice and do some screaming. In the end, after some scolding and screamming the CSO finally told me the answer.
Hahaa.. anywhere got present from my mum.. Again she got freak up coz of my injuries. Dunnoe wat she gonna up with this time.
Sunday, November 28, 2004
Busy for friends?
One day a teacher asked her students to list the names of the
other students in the room on two sheets of paper, leaving a space
between each name.
Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about each of their classmates and write it down.
It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment, and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers.
That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student
on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had
said about that individual.
On Monday she gave each student his or her list.
Before long, the entire class was smiling.
"Really?" she heard whispered. "I never knew that I meant anything to anyone!" and, "I didn't know others liked me so much." were most of the comments.
No one ever mentioned those papers in class again.
She never knew if they discussed them after class with their parents, but it didn't matter. The exercise had accomplished its purpose.
The students were happy with themselves and one another. That group of students moved on. Several years later, one of the students was killed in Vietnam and his teacher attended the funeral of that special student..
She had never seen a serviceman in a military coffin before. He looked so handsome, so mature. The church was packed with his friends.
One by one those who loved him took a last walk by the coffin.
The teacher was the last one to bless the coffin.
As she stood there, one of the soldiers who acted as pallbearer came up to her.
"Were you Mark's math teacher?" he asked. She nodded: "yes."
Then he said: "Mark talked about you a lot."
After the funeral, most of Mark's former classmates went together to a luncheon. Mark's mother and father were there, obviously waiting to speak with his teacher.
"We want to show you something," his father said, taking a wallet out of his pocket. "They found this on Mark when he was killed. We thought you might recognize it."
Opening the billfold, he carefully removed two worn pieces of notebook paper that had obviously been taped, folded and refolded many times.
The teacher knew without looking that the papers were the ones on which she had listed all the good things each of Mark's classmates had said about him.
"Thank you so much for doing that," Mark's mother said. "As you can see, Mark treasured it."
All of Mark's former classmates started to gather around. Charlie smiled rather sheepishly and said, "I still have my list.. It's in the top drawer of my desk at home."
Chuck's wife said, "Chuck asked me to put his in our wedding album."
"I have mine too," Marilyn said. "It's in my diary."
Then Vicki, another classmate, reached into her purse and showed her frazzled list to the group. "I carry this with me at all times, " Vicki said and without batting an eyelash, she continued: "I think we all saved our lists."
That's when the teacher finally sat down and cried. She cried for Mark and for all his friends who would never see him again.
The density of people in society is so thick that we forget that life will end one day. And we don't know when that one day will be.
So please, tell the people you love and care for, that they are
special and important.
Tell them, before it is too late...
other students in the room on two sheets of paper, leaving a space
between each name.
Then she told them to think of the nicest thing they could say about each of their classmates and write it down.
It took the remainder of the class period to finish their assignment, and as the students left the room, each one handed in the papers.
That Saturday, the teacher wrote down the name of each student
on a separate sheet of paper, and listed what everyone else had
said about that individual.
On Monday she gave each student his or her list.
Before long, the entire class was smiling.
"Really?" she heard whispered. "I never knew that I meant anything to anyone!" and, "I didn't know others liked me so much." were most of the comments.
No one ever mentioned those papers in class again.
She never knew if they discussed them after class with their parents, but it didn't matter. The exercise had accomplished its purpose.
The students were happy with themselves and one another. That group of students moved on. Several years later, one of the students was killed in Vietnam and his teacher attended the funeral of that special student..
She had never seen a serviceman in a military coffin before. He looked so handsome, so mature. The church was packed with his friends.
One by one those who loved him took a last walk by the coffin.
The teacher was the last one to bless the coffin.
As she stood there, one of the soldiers who acted as pallbearer came up to her.
"Were you Mark's math teacher?" he asked. She nodded: "yes."
Then he said: "Mark talked about you a lot."
After the funeral, most of Mark's former classmates went together to a luncheon. Mark's mother and father were there, obviously waiting to speak with his teacher.
"We want to show you something," his father said, taking a wallet out of his pocket. "They found this on Mark when he was killed. We thought you might recognize it."
Opening the billfold, he carefully removed two worn pieces of notebook paper that had obviously been taped, folded and refolded many times.
The teacher knew without looking that the papers were the ones on which she had listed all the good things each of Mark's classmates had said about him.
"Thank you so much for doing that," Mark's mother said. "As you can see, Mark treasured it."
All of Mark's former classmates started to gather around. Charlie smiled rather sheepishly and said, "I still have my list.. It's in the top drawer of my desk at home."
Chuck's wife said, "Chuck asked me to put his in our wedding album."
"I have mine too," Marilyn said. "It's in my diary."
Then Vicki, another classmate, reached into her purse and showed her frazzled list to the group. "I carry this with me at all times, " Vicki said and without batting an eyelash, she continued: "I think we all saved our lists."
That's when the teacher finally sat down and cried. She cried for Mark and for all his friends who would never see him again.
The density of people in society is so thick that we forget that life will end one day. And we don't know when that one day will be.
So please, tell the people you love and care for, that they are
special and important.
Tell them, before it is too late...
Saturday, November 27, 2004
Sunday, November 14, 2004
Kaka Tata
Just bored sitting in front of my desktop. Lucky it wasn't that bored during the afternoon, couple of friend came over place in e near afternoon for some movie. Actually it was not couple, in fact quite a number la. There was Hualian, Nam, Yong and Hai.
After the show, we walk across the road to Rivervale Mall for food. That was a quite a slow walk (for them), they were all walking ahead of me, till nam noticed tt I'm missing from the group. Finally he got them to slow down their pace. After having our stomach stuffed, we gamed in the X-square. It was really interesting and fun.
Ohohhh.. I'm addicted to this online-game, Kal-online (www.kalonline.com) all thank to my bunkmate, Jeremy. Hehee.. go gaming again.. cya.
After the show, we walk across the road to Rivervale Mall for food. That was a quite a slow walk (for them), they were all walking ahead of me, till nam noticed tt I'm missing from the group. Finally he got them to slow down their pace. After having our stomach stuffed, we gamed in the X-square. It was really interesting and fun.
Ohohhh.. I'm addicted to this online-game, Kal-online (www.kalonline.com) all thank to my bunkmate, Jeremy. Hehee.. go gaming again.. cya.
Saturday, November 13, 2004
Bothered!
Bothered by a lot of stuff recently.. And notice that I become so short temper. Bothered by "When my leg going to fully recovered."
Bothered by my mum nagging... She such a fuss recently, could had a moment of peace. Thinking tt my world going to crush soon. Argh!!
Bothered by my mum nagging... She such a fuss recently, could had a moment of peace. Thinking tt my world going to crush soon. Argh!!
Friday, November 12, 2004
Phew
Hohoho... wow it been awhile since my last blog. Well thank for concerning, my leg is getting better, alot better. I'm now able to walk for a distance without clutches, but it would still hurt after a distance. Well what can I say, cause till date the specialist in New Changi General Hospital was unable to diagnose what happened to my knee. What he does was prescribe me with more and stronger painkiller.
I'm sick with all these painkiller.. Doctor r the smartest and laziest person. Can't they just do something to cure it.. argh!!
Nv would i go to ncgh again.
I'm sick with all these painkiller.. Doctor r the smartest and laziest person. Can't they just do something to cure it.. argh!!
Nv would i go to ncgh again.
Tuesday, October 26, 2004
Injured Leg
Hey there..
Ppl, I'm back earlier than the others for the reason I got myself injured.. Haha.. thank for ur concern.. Common question.. be asked.. which part.. How? Why? Then?
Okok.. I injured my right leg.. And how i got myself injured?? To say, I'm not very sure too.. I suspect I was injured in an act of hero.. A company mate who suffered a slip disk problem in a marching drill.. He was first help my the other friend, but I guess he can't support himself too and was abt to fell down. And it happened, tt i was near there.. so being kind hearted.. I lend out a helping hand, and he juz put all his weight on my right side. Well, the nxt moment I noe it crack sound in my right leg... But the true pain only come the following day afternoon.. I suffered in great pain which I can no longer withstand, reaching the medical centre in tekong the medical officer say, I can do nothing much.. will have to send me to Changi General.
Well.. need to do more follow up on 4 Nov, rest well for 2 days and 5 days light duties. Friends, dun worry too much, I'm now feeling better.. only tt required a clutches to help me in my movement. ;p
Ppl, I'm back earlier than the others for the reason I got myself injured.. Haha.. thank for ur concern.. Common question.. be asked.. which part.. How? Why? Then?
Okok.. I injured my right leg.. And how i got myself injured?? To say, I'm not very sure too.. I suspect I was injured in an act of hero.. A company mate who suffered a slip disk problem in a marching drill.. He was first help my the other friend, but I guess he can't support himself too and was abt to fell down. And it happened, tt i was near there.. so being kind hearted.. I lend out a helping hand, and he juz put all his weight on my right side. Well, the nxt moment I noe it crack sound in my right leg... But the true pain only come the following day afternoon.. I suffered in great pain which I can no longer withstand, reaching the medical centre in tekong the medical officer say, I can do nothing much.. will have to send me to Changi General.
Well.. need to do more follow up on 4 Nov, rest well for 2 days and 5 days light duties. Friends, dun worry too much, I'm now feeling better.. only tt required a clutches to help me in my movement. ;p
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
Hi pal..
Hi ppl of my communities,
Thank for showing ur interest in my blog.. Unfortunately, i doubt i could blog as often as usual for a simple reason : " The govt invited me to a offshore chalet (actually i'm sentence to be imprison for 3 wks, and probation of 2 yrs)."
hehee.. now is 2.30 am which say i'm left with less than 12 hrs of civilian life and i'm be meeting my pal in the prison. Hopefully they be there laiding red carpet for my arrival. lolx
Well, basically to update u guys with a litte bit of my past wkend activities. hmm.. I was busy, really busy... Been walking and running on the street in the days, and having great feast in the night (hmm, with nam gor, an gor, paul gor and others...)
Ya not forgetting, my hand over procedures in my office.. man I got no word to say(in hokkien), is really gorgous me. Is it tt difficult for a person to just take over?? I had been giving in liao, I suppose to leave tt place in 5 Oct, but because the staff refuse to do the handover procedure on the 30th Sept(it delay till 4th Oct). No choice I extended my stay till 8 Oct, so tt I could walk through with doing a report. Hahaa.. Noe wat, ended these ppl claimed "har?? I dunnoe ley, dun pass to me la." I left the company on 13 Oct without doing a proper exist interview too... Was so frustrated tt i called starhub to suspend my line, no one on earth could locate me. And when the line was resume, I make my way to johore Bahru with a friend and his camp mate.
Hehee.. Go JB do wat? Of coz doing wat I'm best in, spending spending spending.. Yoz.. bought several thing and went there for a lot of gd food (seafood). And ta pou seafood back too.. Really enjoy myself there... Something interesting happened when I was there. "I board a cab at city sq, going to tamah sentosa for our dinner. The first tt we took, tt vehicle juz can't move and u noe wat he forgotten to release his handbrake. In the end he ask us to take the cab behind him. Well, ok lo. So we board the second cab, (I can spk a litte malay)
I told the uncle: "tamah Sentosa zarpa riggit?"
Uncle: "Six"
We: "ok!", so hop in
Uncle: "#$@$&^7 botok*&^&* brake#$%#&warning$#@"
(tt taxi Criver stupid nv release brake) *something dun understand all
Friend1: "hahahaa" (Uncle continue toking)
I: "You noe wat uncle toking har?"
Friend1: "No, so luff lo!"
Uncle: "^&*^*&%^&$^%$%^"
I was thinking should I used my most powerful melayu sentence "Aku tader melayu buku, siki siki melayu".. After some distance uncle then ask where we going? My friends got stun instantly and was pushing me to use my siki siki melayu, coz obviously the uncle dun understamd english.
I: "Ah zip, jalan taham sentosa to makan. yi nin benkang yikan bagus."
uncle: "????".... "#%$@$#@$@$ makan."
I: "....yaya" (keeping finger cross, hoping tt uncle understood my siki siki melayu)
Finally, we got to tt place safe and sound. But got panic for awhile, nxt time shall make sure the uncle understood my word b4 hopping into the car.
okok la.. I shall see u guys two wk later. 6 Nov.. Wish me luck man.
Thank for showing ur interest in my blog.. Unfortunately, i doubt i could blog as often as usual for a simple reason : " The govt invited me to a offshore chalet (actually i'm sentence to be imprison for 3 wks, and probation of 2 yrs)."
hehee.. now is 2.30 am which say i'm left with less than 12 hrs of civilian life and i'm be meeting my pal in the prison. Hopefully they be there laiding red carpet for my arrival. lolx
Well, basically to update u guys with a litte bit of my past wkend activities. hmm.. I was busy, really busy... Been walking and running on the street in the days, and having great feast in the night (hmm, with nam gor, an gor, paul gor and others...)
Ya not forgetting, my hand over procedures in my office.. man I got no word to say(in hokkien), is really gorgous me. Is it tt difficult for a person to just take over?? I had been giving in liao, I suppose to leave tt place in 5 Oct, but because the staff refuse to do the handover procedure on the 30th Sept(it delay till 4th Oct). No choice I extended my stay till 8 Oct, so tt I could walk through with doing a report. Hahaa.. Noe wat, ended these ppl claimed "har?? I dunnoe ley, dun pass to me la." I left the company on 13 Oct without doing a proper exist interview too... Was so frustrated tt i called starhub to suspend my line, no one on earth could locate me. And when the line was resume, I make my way to johore Bahru with a friend and his camp mate.
Hehee.. Go JB do wat? Of coz doing wat I'm best in, spending spending spending.. Yoz.. bought several thing and went there for a lot of gd food (seafood). And ta pou seafood back too.. Really enjoy myself there... Something interesting happened when I was there. "I board a cab at city sq, going to tamah sentosa for our dinner. The first tt we took, tt vehicle juz can't move and u noe wat he forgotten to release his handbrake. In the end he ask us to take the cab behind him. Well, ok lo. So we board the second cab, (I can spk a litte malay)
I told the uncle: "tamah Sentosa zarpa riggit?"
Uncle: "Six"
We: "ok!", so hop in
Uncle: "#$@$&^7 botok*&^&* brake#$%#&warning$#@"
(tt taxi Criver stupid nv release brake) *something dun understand all
Friend1: "hahahaa" (Uncle continue toking)
I: "You noe wat uncle toking har?"
Friend1: "No, so luff lo!"
Uncle: "^&*^*&%^&$^%$%^"
I was thinking should I used my most powerful melayu sentence "Aku tader melayu buku, siki siki melayu".. After some distance uncle then ask where we going? My friends got stun instantly and was pushing me to use my siki siki melayu, coz obviously the uncle dun understamd english.
I: "Ah zip, jalan taham sentosa to makan. yi nin benkang yikan bagus."
uncle: "????".... "#%$@$#@$@$ makan."
I: "....yaya" (keeping finger cross, hoping tt uncle understood my siki siki melayu)
Finally, we got to tt place safe and sound. But got panic for awhile, nxt time shall make sure the uncle understood my word b4 hopping into the car.
okok la.. I shall see u guys two wk later. 6 Nov.. Wish me luck man.
Monday, October 18, 2004
Woo phoo
Finally got my pc fixed.. well busy day. Be running ard the neighbourhood to get thing settled. Sorry shanlin i miss ur sms..
Thursday, October 14, 2004
Sunday, October 10, 2004
Bloated Days
Hey Hey Hey.. I think I'm getting fatter these days been eating non-stop since the Thursday afternoon. As 21 yrs back I was borned, this explained y I'm bloated. I dun even need cash in my wallet, lunch was free, dinner was free too, and not forgetting transport, it is free too. On Friday again, I was treated to lunch and dinner. Today a sat, I was treated to dinner in a revolving restuarant located at Harborfront, well it serve chinese cusine and importantly the scenary of PSA, Sentosa and Mt Faber, was so bloated after the meal. But I do enjoy myself those days.
Special thanks to - Dillon, Victor, Ah Wong, Louisa, Mark and hmm.. anyone want to treat me?? Hehee..
Special thanks to - Dillon, Victor, Ah Wong, Louisa, Mark and hmm.. anyone want to treat me?? Hehee..
Saturday, October 02, 2004
CB - Cracking Brian
Yoz, Had been cracking my brian cell doing the blog thingy, obviously I'm not a expert. Haha, and been trying to get coding and advise from pal. Well, at least I got my headshot onto my blog.
Friday, 1/10/2004
Feeling lucky, althought my gastric pain relapse in the morning. Manage to got myself to work, and was doing my blog all e while. (this wasn't the reason, why i'm feeling lucky as I'm always doing nothing in the office) The nite, I attended my company Dinner & Dance, where good food, nice drink and great entertianment were served.
Well, during the event, there 2 draws - early birds draw and mysteries draw. I was lucky enuff to walk aways something from these draws. I got a glow-in-dark wrist support and $50 dollars light bistro dine-in voucher. Haha, so lucky..Reason the only near 200 prizes to be won. And the total crowd there was more than 500?? Ya.
Games were played, haha it is only today, I realised how spontaneous uncle and aunties can be. Wow, we were banging and cheering loudly, when our colleagues were on the stage. haha. ppl of other department or entities of NTUC were saying - "this grp of ppl siaoz"
All in all, it been a fun nite. Had drank alot tt nite too, phew.. almost drop but neva, hehee.. if not i would lose the bet. ;p
Friday, 1/10/2004
Feeling lucky, althought my gastric pain relapse in the morning. Manage to got myself to work, and was doing my blog all e while. (this wasn't the reason, why i'm feeling lucky as I'm always doing nothing in the office) The nite, I attended my company Dinner & Dance, where good food, nice drink and great entertianment were served.
Well, during the event, there 2 draws - early birds draw and mysteries draw. I was lucky enuff to walk aways something from these draws. I got a glow-in-dark wrist support and $50 dollars light bistro dine-in voucher. Haha, so lucky..Reason the only near 200 prizes to be won. And the total crowd there was more than 500?? Ya.
Games were played, haha it is only today, I realised how spontaneous uncle and aunties can be. Wow, we were banging and cheering loudly, when our colleagues were on the stage. haha. ppl of other department or entities of NTUC were saying - "this grp of ppl siaoz"
All in all, it been a fun nite. Had drank alot tt nite too, phew.. almost drop but neva, hehee.. if not i would lose the bet. ;p
Friday, October 01, 2004
Well, wat to say?
Ya, Finally i got my blog started. In the office, while most ppl are working on the their project but here i am blogging. Haiz.. today a day where the last batch of my pal going into tt "wonderful" resort by the sea, with accompany of the blue blue sky. Pity boring, coz i be the only one left outside this world. Well, not tt bad at least i still had some female friends, like shanlin and others.
Hohoho.. I shall announce this would be my start to this blog. so ppl do support and gif comments.
Hohoho.. I shall announce this would be my start to this blog. so ppl do support and gif comments.
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